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Friday, November 28th, 2003
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Thursday, November 27th, 2003
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Monday, November 24th, 2003
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| Time: | 12:49 pm. |
| Music: | no knife.. |
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i do believe a shot to my throat might even things out a little, but still, i am so sorry. you can have my hands, and candy.
im such a fuck up.
i could give you a reason.
wait, i did.
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failed mission. so sorry sweetie, i really hope you dont get in anymore trouble that you already are. the password wouldnt work. :(
stabbed in the back. i suppose you get what you put in right? right.
oh no no, its just how i am taking it.
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Sunday, November 23rd, 2003
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VotrePetiteVache (8:57:49 PM): shes ugly... don't talk to her
F AllToTheFace (8:57:54 PM): hahahhahahahahahhaha
F AllToTheFace (9:01:54 PM): who names their child *****
VotrePetiteVache (9:04:09 PM): I KNOW
VotrePetiteVache (9:04:15 PM): they're just asking for ugly
I love Heather.
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go team sneaking out of my house at 4am to go to Cape Cod. go team seeing a sunrisen sky from Scargo Tower. go team walking all the way to the end of the jeddis'. go team walking into the ocean in the middle of November not wearing much clothing. go team trusting someone enough to fall asleep on them. go team feeling vintage. go team rob being illmatic. go team waves crashing. go team pretty. go team never getting in trouble. go team getting a hug from Dan.
yay getting to go to the beach.
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| Time: | 1:44 am. |
| Mood: |  anxious. | | Music: | quiet abandonment.. |
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It is good that it never really mattered how hard things were, you simply just didnt care, and you dont, and that just might be the most wonderful thing ever because now I do not care, not about you, or anybody else for that matter, not even about myself. For a girl who has spent the last 17 years putting everyone she has ever cared for before herself, idolizing, learning, loving, sharing, for that girl to finally come to this, and have no bitterness about it, is also very much amazing.
I had always been the girl who would drop everything for someone no matter what, and here I am, dropped.
I think about what a hard time Ive had letting go but then I look at some of you now, and Im just sort of disgusted. I used to think you were immortal, I used to think you were beautiful, I used to think you were trustworthy, I used to think you were caring, I used to think you were fun, I used to think you were mature, I used to think you were thoughtful, I used to think you were different, I used to think you were understanding.
I am so tired of just running through the motions.
Maybe I am this way for a reason, but hello honesty, it has been far too long... and they thought that you used to get me into trouble! pfft!
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Saturday, November 22nd, 2003
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Friday, November 21st, 2003
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| Subject: | Ehem. |
| Time: | 12:08 pm. |
| Mood: | beachless.. | | Music: | brand new. <--but it should be the sound of waves crashing. |
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I would just like to inform everyone that today is lovely day to go to the beach.
And, I, personally, would love to go to the beach.
Just saying...
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Thursday, November 20th, 2003
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This is horrible, if she were here she would run up behind me to find nothing to snap, nothing to mark, oh back, why are you so wide? I ran outside without hesitation, no shoes, no socks, the cold burning my feet, not dark enough to hide my disheveled appearance, why cant I be the pale tint to the way today fell into today? Cold, cold wet cement, grey on green but brown, not you, he was not here to upset me, she was too pushy, it hurt my head, what a dream, idea soaring, my feet, oh dark, you make them more beautiful than what they are, you will not melt, nope, not today. Please dont do that. I never watched my hand needing you, crying into the plastic, "it won't stop, I don't know why I did it." You could see my veins through my hat, please, I love you isnt enough because those red lines on your ankles make me cringe, make me want to hurt you more. The halls smelled of wooden locks even though they were all steel, my detergent wouldnt give my pants the benefit of the doubt. You still look the same? Arms so thin, putting pressure to mine, when will I pass this test? Flesh and cloth, flesh and you, Im sorry the silver became dull, you realized then what a commitment you had made. So what? Virgin hair, freckled shoulders, fresh cuts with fruit on my eyelids, so that would be you. So here is the dream: In the blink of an eye, either yours or mine, my hair could flow through the winter wind weightless and warm like the blood pumping through your lips (lie!)(veins). The house wouldnt be brick, dirty, and sad. My legs would be long and your mattress, so wide. Every vision, and every idea of beauty would be recycled for ideas of new colors and names, hands and souls, branches and coat hangers, your eyes, my cavities, and not one true realization. meet you there mi love.
i know she doesnt see this the way i do because the last time she cleaned me up was when i was four (seventeen), maybe, but she was the one who bought me those shoes that caused me to slip and fall, right. right. right!
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I missed the Deftones, so who is going to take me to the show at Lupos? Yes suh.
I guess Im not going to the show tonight... ya know... I guess thats cool... yeah... i guess...
I miss my sweater already.
Yesterday was horrid. It was, the night was swell. Tis beautiful out. Oh muh gawd. I am going to have so many dance parties with myself, oh man, you dont even know.
"You dont even know me! You dont even know what my favorite Dr. Dre song is?"- Peter Schap. HA!
Ya know, I dont even have to go to shows anymore, I will just have my own shows, MY OWN.
Bitches are mad fucking ungood.
I love Heather, she is so indie. Uh!
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Tuesday, November 18th, 2003
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Monday, November 17th, 2003
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I guess it sort of weirds me out. It didn't feel like this at all yesterday, how can that be? It is still the same skin, mine, mine, mine, mine. Still the same fabric, still the same side I slept on. I dream far too colorful, it makes me sad, I guess. It shouldnt feel this weird, the color brown wasnt any darker 3 years ago, I haven't worn that dress since then so it would not fade, not one bit, I dont care that you don't care, it scares me to do such things. Wait. It scared me, past tense. I have to think about it, a silly obligation, darker than darker and it has never been so deep. Look at all these promises set out on the blank, not an object an adjective, I told you I didnt care, just like I did then, she doesnt drive fast enough when I think about it, she would take me away like I had never disapointed her, like I had never made her cry. Never, won't, will! This hurts like never before, only because it has never happened, and it really doesnt hurt at all either. It scares me, it really really does. The steps, and the way my hair was pushed out of my eyes, the way I was concerned, I cant stand the numbers that tend to define us so clearly, so strongly, my knees turn in. Repeat. Im wiping the oil up because that is what she taught me only 2 months experienced, Im sorry I was wearing black that day? It doesnt make sense, it really doesnt.
I figure out most things but not really. I can handle almost anything. So much has changed and I have got a handle on it, oh these sentences are adding up. I say things that are disgusting so that I am thought to be disgusting and I can use the excuse that it is because I have convinced them of it, and not because they have found that out for themselves. I dont take care of myself because I dont care for myself and no one else should. Everything anyone says to me starts itself out as a lie and fights its way into my hands. I have become stupid, and I refuse to color in the lines. I hate it when you do too. Can't you imagine it though? Fall, please. please. please, and when it triggers you, kiss me as if the red light will never turn green disapproving of how much we look away.
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Sunday, November 16th, 2003
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Well first of all the moon was wearing a hat last night and buffaloes that talk make me feel weird inside sort of like Mary-Kate and Ashley Olsen's First Video. This is true.
So this weekend, I'll start with Thursday, but I am really only doing that because I wish to mention that Belle & Sebastian was amazing again. Okay, so Friday, I went to Piebald with Joyce, Heather, and Amber. I really do enjoy them. I do not enjoy sticks though, they upset me, or give me a chance to impress Heather and Joyce. We are the best mechanics ever. Amherst is pretty far away no matter how close you are. There were alot of people at the show, and all of them were very attractive, so many scarves and belts! So many scarves and belts!!! Lots of people, it was good to see some of them. It was amazing not caring and actin' a fool with Amber and Sean, dance move styles like woah. Amber! You are such a rockstar! Really, even your hair was all like "Im Amber's rockstar hair. its nice to meet you", and I was llike "Uhm Hi..." Yeah. But f real. It was wonderous seeing mi husband Sean, and he gave me a mixtape that I am listening to now, and its radtactular, f real. Yup. I love Sean. So dancing was nice even though I cant dance, so it was more than nice. I stole a bunch of stuff, and I gave a floor tile to Bane kid, and I beat up those characters that needed to be beat up but not really. Amber and I hit on Arron from Piebald and I kissed him on the cheek before I left and he fell over, yay being forceful? so I win, and I have a secret handshake with Travis. Yup. The ride home we listened to EA. Enough said. Oooh, and we met a kid with braces who wanted us to believe he was just being a decent person and showing us how to get home, but he really meant HIS home, but that isnt true either. Mmm. Then I got home, and talked to Rob even though he hates me, then I snuck out and it was beautiful and cold and he wanted a milkshake but Denny's was crowded with mad heads and Yemen isnt even open at 3 am, but yup, we listened to Jeff Buckley (and Dashboard!) and sunrises are pretty, so that was illmatic. I find it sort of weird that I dont get in trouble with my parents ever no matter what I do and then they wonder why I continue to do things. Oh non existent consequences. I slept all day yesterday, then the dinner party, Jon was a lovely date, he gave me a book about Nick Drake, Heather was a beautiful host, and Dan brushed his hair so he looked like a pedophile but I really liked being around them last night even though DAN fucked up the bathroom (oh I knew it was you the whole time!) but yes, I love pretending to be sophisticated. Giraffe and Prostitute whore also attented the party along with Smoking cabbage patch doll. La! Heather let me borrow her SLeater-Kinney cd, so the night was full of abundance. yes suh! Then Jeff4free came to pick me up so we could watch Radio Flyer! We saw Erin, Felicia, Jill, and Anne too! That made me really happy, then we got to Jeff's mom's house, and she hugged me and told me I was beautiful alot, and I wanted to cry because Im not at all but I still love that woman alot. I fell asleep during Radio Flyer so I missed the part about the buffalo but we rewinded it so it was all good. Then when I got home I talked to Lizzy, so that was a stellar way to end my day, and I get to see her now! Yes.
"Are you real?"
"Yeah, just touch my nose."
It took me WAY to long to write this.
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Friday, November 14th, 2003
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my face is falling apart and i suppose i am a little bit upset about that but im really not because i would rather be flying a kite than updating my journal right now, how tragic is that? "asking questions in a letter", i firmly believe those days were not ready to go as they ended. just like that, and everything you would say to make me do the same because i cant think straight when i love you so much. and you knew that. know that! unlucky, neeeeewwwwwwp, because no one ever heard, ever, and that is beautiful, lovely, amazing, all those words that best articulate the "goodness" of it all, because i simply cant by shaking my hands and pointing every which way in hopes you catch my drift, though you never have, but you did catch my cold, and that to me, is a success alone. victory is mine causing you to become ill, at the time feeling guilty, now wishing it was fatal. for the both of us. i dont understand how people like that can go on living as much as i dont understand why they are constantly shooting us up on fear because this side of the boat doesnt want to keep going, and wind pushes nothing, the speed would have killed us like you promised but im still here, why arent you paying me to have faith in you yet? so yes! beautiful! same old nonsense being nonsense, my throat hurts, and i think i might lay there forever because something here needs a constant.
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So I just got home, and my stomach pain is easing as I type, oh LJ, how Ive missed you.
First of all, Belle & Sebastian was beyond stellar, it honestly might have been the best show I have ever beeen to, fucking beautiful. Seriously, sakjfjidshfjdsfjs, it was amazing. But the best part was: Jon, Emily, and I being FUCKING ESCORTED OUT of the orpheum theater for trying to "steak back stage" Yeah, they threw us out in the cold.
Yup. it was very amazing, Piebald tomorrow, more lip biting, maybe death, XFUCKINGXSTOMACHXPAINSX
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Thursday, November 13th, 2003
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So, I should be at drivers ed, staring at the sex hair kid, but am I? No. I am not. Do you know why? Because life hates me. Or because I am very much an inconvenience of sorts. Ah well. Yesterday at class I made people practice my signiture so they could sign the book for me, hopefully it all works out so I can drive like woah soon. Yes suh.
It is crazily windy outside and I want to go to the beach. Mmmm. I fucking hate it here.
Belle & Sebastian+tonight+Jon&Emily+Heroin+Boston= Diet sprite.
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That tree is making all the other trees feel bad about their posture, and I don't think it's very fair at all because I just want what I used to have and even then I wanted something else so I am not quite sure what I am actually asking for here, and I don't think it really matters all that much anyway but when you used to understand and finish with the words I could not pronounce then I never really thought about the difference, and silly remainders such as yourself never do remain after all is said and done though you were just doing your job, or my job for me.
Shhhhh, I am beginning to feel not so grateful. (graceful.)
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Wednesday, November 12th, 2003
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Who thinks its funny that the second we started to drift apart I thought it was because I was actually in love with you?
Wooo! Go me!!
I plan to spend the rest of my life dancing around to the white stripes.
Chris Carababababa kissed me. mmmmmhmmm.
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my nose hates me.
Last Time You..
Really Smiled : Last night, well Monday night
Laughed: Dan and Candy Schap while watching "While you were out"
Cried: Tonight while I was walking home from Dan's
Danced: Tonight in Dan's liviving room, and last night at Assumption with Dan. (we've lost our groove)
Had sex: My life is sex.
Drank: Monday night
Smoked: Smokers are jokers.
Watched your favorite movie: Mmmm, not sure. Maybe like 72 years ago.
Had a nightmare: Sunday night
Last thing you had to drink : soda. Mad hurt.
Last time you showered : hahahaha. yeah. uhm, i took a bath the other day...
Last thing you ate : my sammich from Franco's
Regular Shit
Name: Maura Elizabeth
Do you like it?: Nope.
Nicknames: Uhm, yeah, I seriously dont have any except for like "attention whore" and "whore de attention", someone wanna get up on this problem please?
Screen names: F alltotheface
Birthday: June 21, 1986. The first day of summer.
Sign: Gemini-Cancer cusp.
Location: Worcester, Ma
School: You.
Crush: Myself. Justttttt kidding.
Virgin?: "dont choo got nuthin' to do then worry bout my friends, CHECK IT"- Salt N Pepa.
Natural hair color: dark brown
Current hair color: brown and red
Eye color: hazel vampireish.
Height:5'8
Birthplace: Worcester, Ma
Shoe size: 8 ?
Family
Parents: Nancy Nan &Bertie.
Siblings: Jennifer, Jane, Meg, Katie, Sully.
Live with: MommyNDaddy+Sully+Katie+Talya!
Favorite relative: Jenn
Favorites
Color: bruisedishpurpleblueishsunsetish.
Day: the ones when my knees arent cold.
Month: October/November/Decemberish
Movie: Fight Club, Vanilla Sky, mmmmm
Food: Taboule!
Season: Fall
Drink: Orange Juice
Veggie: uhm. you.
TV Show: Degrassi.
Radio Station: I have radio a.d.d.
Store: ones that sell tissues.
Animal: Ocelots!
Flower: Roses or Tulips
State: Yemen. Oohhh!
Love and Relationships
Do you have a bf/gf?: Newp.
Do you have a crush?: Yes suh.
How long have you liked him/her?: since I was thirsty,
Why do you like this person?: why not?
How long was your longest relationship?: almost 2 years? a year and a half? a year?
How long was your shortest relationship?: like 2 hours.
Who was your first love?: Ugh. In 6th grade Vinny sent me a necklace in the mail once and he used to draw me pictures of Shawn Michaels. Awwww.
What do you miss about them?: he was a skipped heartbeat
The Past
What is the one thing you would change about your past?: Lots. Probably do better in school, not be a hussy, never learned how to hate myself, mmm, yup lots.
Last thing you heard: type type type.
Last thing you saw on tv: the black screen.
Last thing you said: "Bye"
Who is the last person you saw?: My dad
Who is the last person you kissed?: Candy Schap. (I wish)
Who is the last person you hugged?: Erin, last night, which is sad because I saw both Dan and Liz today.
Who was the last person you were on the phone with?: Daniel Schap.
What is the last TV show you saw?: That 70's show.
What is the last song you heard?: Walk like an egyptian.
The Present
What are you wearing?: the shirt i was wearing yesterday that liz may sent in a care package for me back in the day, and muh pants.
What are you doing?: this survey, wondering why Dan and I dont "fit" anymore, wanting to listen to Tori Amos.
Who are you talking to?: No one.
What song are you listening to?: the computer buzzing, but old school TLC is about to be up in here.
Where are you?: living room.
Are you online?: Yessuh
How are you feeling?: really good actually.
Future
What day is it tomorrow?: Thursday
What are you going to do after this?: go to couch. think about stuff.
Who are you going to talk to?: no one.
Where are you going to go?: to couch!
How old will you be when you graduate?: hahaha.
What do you wanna be?: beautiful.
Where will you be in 25 years?: in oblivion.
Who..
Makes you laugh the most: Dan... Jeff, i dont know!
Makes you smile: that feeling
Gives you a funny feeling when you see them: all of the hims.
Has a crush on you: No one!
Do you have a crush on: Myself.
Best
cologne: yuk!
perfume: body splash.
kiss: that one...
romantic memory: that time on my couch when Dan told me that he loved me and then started kissing me, oh wait, NOT! haha the other day walking down the stairs holding candles with Heather.
Have You..
Fallen for your best friend?: Yes.
Made out with JUST a friend?: haha that is my life.
Been rejected?: that too is my life.
Been in love?: omg! that too is my life!
Been in lust?: that too!!!
Used someone?: Not in that way, but yeah apparently thats what I do. Fuck.
Been used?: Im not really good for anything...
Cheated on someone?: Yup.
Been cheated on?: Yup.
Been kissed?: Nope. Never.
Done something you regret?: Yup.
Who Was The Last Person..
You touched?: Myself. Oooo.
You talked to?: Dan
You hugged?: Erin, you already asked all these questions.
You instant messaged?: uhhh that character who i talk to
You kissed?: that boy.
You had sex with?: myself!
You yelled at?: my mom tonight
You laughed with?: Dan, kind of...
Who broke your heart?: Me.
who told you they loved you?: wow. i dont remember.
Other
Do you write in cursive or print?: both
Are you a lefty or a righty?:righty
What is your sexual preference?: "I dont think it really matters but I really do enjoy feeling that hardness against me" HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What piercings do you have?: Im empty these days.
Any tattoos?: Wear em wit pride.
Do you drive?: yes, not licensed
do you have glasses or braces?: I need braces.
Did you like this survey?: yeah, and you know why? Because its about me.
Physical Appearance
How many fillings do you have?: a billion
Do you think you're good looking?: Nope.
Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking?: Nope.
Do you look like any celebrities?: haha Nopppppppe.
Fashion
Do you wear a watch?: I used to have a Britney Spears watch and whoever stole that from me should die.
How many coats and jackets do you own?:3
Favorite pants: uuuuuhh bitch give em back.
most expensive item of clothing?: hahaha my prom dress!
Most treasured?: ooohhhh... maybe my deftones shirt...
What kind of shoes do you wear?: my brown ones.
Describe your style in one word: DumpsterChic!
Three things that scare me:
1: Fizzy-ailing at life more than I already am.
2: Getting fatter.
3: being buried alive<---- Yes!
Three people who make me laugh:
1: Dan
2: Megan Tuggle
3: Dan's impersonation of Ellen Degenerous.
Three Things I love:
1: the beach
2: actually feeling something when I kiss someone
3: you
Three Things I hate:
1: not weighing a 1/2 pound.
2: Halloween Outlet replacing Fortins Market 4 years ago
3: dogs wearing clothes<----- hahahahahahhahaha
Three things I don't understand:
1: Why the things that have happened happened.
2: death.
3: people who dont take me to the beach when i want to go.
Three things on my desk:
1: cds
2: a mirror
3: mi notebook.
Three things I'm doing right now:
1: survey<---- mm
2: wishing my ass would stop hurting.
3: thinking in general.
Three ways to describe my personality:
1: fucked up.
2: anoying
3: ugly
Three things I can't do:
1: forget
2: hold on
3: let go.
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Tuesday, November 11th, 2003
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| Time: | 10:30 am. |
| Mood: |  boo hoo!. | | Music: | Jeff Buckley.. |
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My thumb hurts with ferocity like "OMG" I dont even know. I want it to stop hurting though, really, I do, but will it? No. No, it wont, and do you know why that is? No? Well, I'll tell ya, it is because it is MY thumb, and all I do is think about myself, so there will be nothing, not one thing, that could ever take my mind off this pain. Ooo. It is like a penatrating sort of feeling now. Hmm.
Guitar solo, how are you? Tis very much sad that you are not an actual person, because if you were I think this world would be a very different place.
This song makes me cry, mostly because it isnt written about me, and I cant handle things that arent about me. WOO. Im kidding though, which is also funny because, yeah, well, just because it is funny. I really dislike myself, but Im not miserable, swell! Swell that I have finally accepted me. "I just gotta be me"-xINDIVIDUALXCOREX
*scratch that* thank you for teaching me how to let go.
My thumb doesnt hurt anymore. Someone should take me to the beach.
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Monday, November 10th, 2003
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| Time: | 10:44 am. |
| Mood: |  grateful. | | Music: | ani... so muchhh ani. |
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my new sweater is the best new sweater ever.
yes suh, i need orange juice.
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Sunday, November 9th, 2003
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Dan is growing up. He kissed somebody without me being there.
Me: Dan, you dont need me anymore.
Dan: Oh Maura, of course I need you, dont you know what co-dependency is all about?
Flicka flicka flicka, here you are, cata cata cata, caterpillar girl, flowing in and filling up my hopeless heart, oh never never go. Dust my lemon lies with powder pink and sweet. The day I stop, is the day you change. And fly away from me. You flicker and you're beautiful. You glow inside my head. You hold me hypnotized. I'm mesmerized. Your flames, the flames that kiss me dead.
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This morning I woke up, and I walked down to Jot's. I layed in her bed for a while, and she was wearing a moo moo. It felt nice to see her though and be in her room, it really did.
The rest of my day was nothing but class and sass. I love you Heather. (and Courtney) You MUH GiRLS FoRLYFE. Twas wonderful, as always.
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Dad: what do you have on your neck?
Me: Dan.
Dad: what?
Me: Dan did it.
Dad: why would he do that? Why?
Me: I did it to him first, you should see his neck.
Dad: You can get diseases like that. Why did you do that?
Me: Thats okay we like to share our diseases anyway.
Dad: WHy?! You need to put something on that.
Me: Meh.
Okay. i suppose it was funnier if you could have seen his face.
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Saturday, November 8th, 2003
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I might just hate this more than anything but that would just be silly of me because last night I wasn't eleven years old, or eight, or how ever old I was back then. I wasnt scared of people who were taller than me, I wasnt scared of anyone, only of what could be. Blonde highlights, none what so ever. I never would of thought that I was going to fall asleep, and I didnt. His eyes were very pretty though.
I don't belong, and you know it.
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Friday, November 7th, 2003
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i dont think i have ever seen anybody that drunk in my whole life. oh bed that isnt mine, i shall sleep in you with tights on!
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Thursday, November 6th, 2003
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Well!
today I got to hang out with Dan, and I looked sort of cute when I went to drivers ed, and I put glue in my hair so I had sex hair, and then when I walked by the sex hair boy's class, we made eye contact. YUP. Yeah, he and I, we have a future together, like, making eachother's hair messy. So yeaaah.
I also played with some kid's hair and he uses lots of conditioner.
Truth.
and my dad has a livejournal so add him to your friend's list so he feels special :::: My daddy's LJ
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| Time: | 3:34 pm. |
| Mood: |  amused. |
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Me: Dan I hate my life, no seriously, I hate it.
Dan: Maura!!! You arent fat!!
Me: Dan! That isnt it!!
Dan: Maura! Boys like you!!
Me: DANNN!!!!!!! THat isnt what this is about.
Dan: Maura!! no, its either one of those, your life has no depth what so ever.
Me: *squeals*
We are listening to Hot Hot Heat
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I love Nicolette. She is pretty, and it makes me really happy when she calls me because she is Nicolette and she is really pretty. Yup. She isn't my girlfriend, but if she was, i would probably say things like "Hey, my girlfriend is really pretty", or "you know that pretty girl with the cool name, yeah, thats my girlfriend."
Well, I know it sounds like the only reason I like Nicolette is because she is pretty, and yeah, its true, but like sometimes she is like okay to talk to.. sometimes.
Oh I kid.
No seriously though, I love Nicolette, she is definately one of the best people I know ever, and she and I have the best phone convos ever, I know you're jealous.
I also love at the drive-in more than anything else in this world, besides Nicolette.
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Comments: Now what did I do wrong this time?.
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Wednesday, November 5th, 2003
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Bang! that is the sound of the gun that I stole from the bane kid last Saturday. I also shot Heather with this gun. Bang! Yup. I still have it, Ive shot down bitches from every block, and yeah. But last saturday Bane kid's car broke down because Heather's mix tape was too intense for it to handle, so then Heather went to work but little did she know that her work was out of half and half so she had to go buy some, and ya know what Patrick Bane Kid and I did? We shot da bitch down.
Yup. Thats my story. Bane kid is the illest. I love Heatheeeer, and Bane Kid.
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Comments: 10 more huge mistakes - Now what did I do wrong this time?.
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Ehem. A few things.
1. If you have hair that makes you look like you have been having sex all day then I want to hang out with you all day tomorrow.
2. I have my period with ferocity and its foggy out, so imagine the fog as my menstrual blood and go for a walk. Thank you.
3. I love Kind of Like Spitting.
4. Joey Potter is so hott.
5. Fuck Kissing. Fuck Kissing.
6. Taboule, and people who live far away should move next door.
7. I want to have sex with Joey Potter. Wait. No I dont.
8. Dye dye my darling, Liz May, you have to dye my hair before I chop it all off.
9. "I am an individual, Dad."
10. I am not going to speak a word til Im skinny.
dont ever tell me i have dick sucking lips and that i am putting them to waste again i will seriously claw you.
Ass.
Dad: You look so beautiful when you dress like that.
Me: Uhm. Creepy. Dress like what?
Dad: Well, yeah know, not so, when you dress *inserts stuttering here* blah blah, normal.
Me: *turns into Stephanie Tanner* As apposed to me dressing weird? What? I dont dress weird!
Dad: You just look better when you arent all dressed up in prom dresses, and fancy skirts all the time.
Me: Fancy?! FANCY?!
xDUMPSTERxCHICx FOR LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Comments: 7 more huge mistakes - Now what did I do wrong this time?.
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Tuesday, November 4th, 2003
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Sunday, November 2nd, 2003
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Saturday, November 1st, 2003
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Friday, October 31st, 2003
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I just fell inlove with a 10 year old girl dressed up as a christmas tree.
i am going to be a horrible child molester when i grow up.
JUST KIDDING, I ALREADY AM.
JUST KIDDING.
its weird how crazily dissatisfied with my appearance i am. my ankle is bleeding, silly ankle, my hair is really soft, i am very wide, and ninjas are so much better than pirates.
thank you.
michelle henry, i love you.
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Comments: 8 more huge mistakes - Now what did I do wrong this time?.
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Liz, Amber, and Libby remember those kids that we met at Tortilla Sam's last friday? WELL, funny stuff right here, today I went to my dad's work to get money, and my dad was all like "I want you to meet his kid" and blah blah a whole bunch of stuff that i'll fill you in on later, but yeah, IT WAS THAT KID CARL, the little kid, not the indian, but the other really young looking one, HE WORKS WITH MY DAD. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I was with Cassie, and we just started laughing hysterically screaming "WE KNOW YOU!!!!" and yeah it was pretty bad... because he works with my dad, and we met trying to sell alcohol, i kissed girls in front of him, and oh yeah, I DONT FUCKING BEHAVE IN PUBLIC. PLUS I know my dad must have said a whole bunch of shit about me to him because the way he introduced him to me, my dad has no problem putting peoples personal business out there. Ass. But yeah. it was crazy and he is going to be in my drivers ed class.
but yeah, i hope you girls have hella amounts of fun tonight.
ANd Everyone else too. Mmmmmhmmm.
Happy Halloween, hopefully I dont OD again this year. :)
Who wants to make out? And anyone who does make out tonight, think of me!
(i like blink 182?!)
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Comments: 3 more huge mistakes - Now what did I do wrong this time?.
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guilty.
apathetic.
accomplished.
aggravated.
content.
crushed.